Overwhelmed

I am seriously having a hard time expressing the amount of gratitude I have for all of the love, support, care, kindness, and help so many people have and continue to give to both my family and me.  Overwhelmed is the only word I know for it.

So, it is not for a lack of gratefulness that I have not expressed this until now, but rather a lack of knowing how to express it.  I want to be able to share each and every little thing everyone has done for me over the last couple of weeks.  And, I want to be able to say "Thank You" in a way that properly conveys just how thankful I am.  I am not even sure that is possible.  Thank you is not enough.  I feel like I would not have been able to make it through these weeks without all this out-pouring of love.  I feel like I owe you all the joy in my soul.

This time has been surreal.  Almost like it is happening to someone else, instead of to me, and I am watching from the outside, saying, "Wow.  Isn't that interesting."  And wondering, where did all these people come from to care about me and my family?  How is it possible that we are so loved and cared for?  Strangers are praying for me.  People I have never met are sending me cards.  Parents of my children's friends are running them all over creation.  Food appears at my doorstep.  The phone rings with people just wanting to know how my day is going.  I have flowers, gift baskets, chocolate-covered cherries(!), fruit, hats, socks, shawls, soup, muffins, gift cards and so much more.  I have two pages of notebook paper filled with people to thank.  I have a stack of cards that is so large it no longer fits in a huge envelope Matt brought home to put them in.  Wow.  Wow.  Wow.

All I know is that if I step back into my body for just a moment I am completely overcome by this love and support.  And, I cannot thank you enough.  So, please except my meager thanks.  Please know that all you are doing has been everything to me.  Thank you.  Thank you.  Thank you.